Actor Irrfan Khan died a year ago, after a two-year battle with a neuroendocrine tumour. On his first death anniversary, Irrfan Khan's wife Sutapa Sikdar and his son Babil opened up about the last days of the late actor.
In an interview with Film Companion, Sutapa described Irrfan's curiosity about death and what happens in afterlife.
Sutapa also described how Irrfan's diagnosis of cancer made him feel that he had drawn death towards him, reports Indian Express.
"He was very curious about death since the day we met. He comes from a Muslim family, I come from a Hindu background but I never had a natal chart. It's all Irrfan; he made my kundali. His thing for astrology was not to know what will happen to his career but he was curious to know what will happen in the next life. He was immensely curious about it. He messaged Anup in London if he was drawing death towards him. Death had become like his playmate," Sutapa added.
While talking about his last few days, Sutapa remembered how Irrfan needed her 24/7 as he had to go through severe treatment.
She recalled that before going to the hospital, he assured her everything is alright. "He is telling me – 'nahi theek hai.' Without any tantrum or anger. His face didn't reveal any displeasure. I so clearly remember, sitting on the edge of the bed, he had become very weak. I made him wear his trousers, combed his hair. He sat, he held my hand and got up. We hugged each other. There was not even a second of finality in it. No intuition of him was saying that I will not come back."
"For him, I don't think he thought the time has come. He was reading books and planning films with Babil. He was planning every tree we will plant, which I am doing now. Everything. I don't know, I sometimes feel guilty that I had so much faith which I instilled in him that 'kuch nahi hoga, main sambhal lungi'. He believed in me so much," Sutapa was tearful.
Babil also spoke about his last moments with his 'Baba' Irrfan Khan. "I was there in the hospital in the last two days. He was losing consciousness. He just looked at me, smiled and said, 'I am going to die.' And I said, 'No, you are not.' He smiled again and went back to sleep. But I really feel like he had surrendered completely. There are no words to achieve that kind of evolution, I think."